today had me thinking a lot about the world & life. i'm someone who worries quite a bit about everything, basically. i have strong fears & things like that. however, today i have decided that i would like to enjoy life for what it is. life is a beautiful thing, & i think we're lucky to be here. of course not everyday is a wonderful one, & the world has a lot of evil minded people, but those are things we can't control, unfortunately. what we can control is what we decide to do with our lives. whether we decide to sit around & hate it & ourselves, or if we decide to enjoy the time we have with those we care about & enjoy the person we have to see in the mirror everyday. why shouldn't we not only love life, but ourselves? what is stopping us in this very moment? we are here, so we should make the most of it. there's beautiful things out there that makes life something to celebrate. some of us, like myself, are brought into this world & develop disorders that we can't control. we can't control our thoughts & emotions sometimes. but i have days like this where things are okay, where my mind decides to allow me to think about life in a positive light. it's beautiful, i appreciate that. i feel like some of the things we tend to worry about as a society is rather small & holds us back from this enjoyment of living, such as what others will think about us. quite frankly, if others are going to think negatively about you, they either don't deserve to be in your life or they're people that won't have a role in your life for very long. there has been plenty of times where i didn't want to be here because of how the people surrounding me were making me feel. the more i think about it, the more control over that i feel. i choose how i want to handle difficult situations, & wanting to not be here isn't going to be it anymore. i want to live & enjoy everything. everyone should. life can be cut short at anytime, & that scares me, but it also just inspires me to live a life i would be proud of if it was cut short. when difficult times come my way, & they will, i'll know that i'll get a wonderful day afterwards that will make staying worth it.