Underneath these smiles are two souls trying to take in every life lesson we can to make peace with the current $hit storm we have been in war with. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
My emotions swing from grateful to deep anger in a matter of seconds. I am faced with the constant adjustments that need to be catered to with this tumor and the disruption it does in Mike’s body. There are moments of sadness, frustration, heart ache, confusion, hope, deep gratitude, overwhelming love, flickers of peace in the present moment and joy. I find myself so sad “it” is putting a major kink in my life “plan.” And then I remind myself, I am not gifted anything except today. Today. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So I work each day to be grateful we have another day to fight back at this tumor.
That we have each other.
That we have our gorgeous girls. That we have a life I thought I could only dream up, and yet, I have more than I ever imagined. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
My role as partner/wife/mother/daughter/sister/friend is in a massive growth pattern. Some days I succeed some days I fail and fall flat on my face. My relationships have forgiveness and love and I treasure that in a major way. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ✨
I aim to incorporate the things I learn - from my weekly therapy, books I read, podcasts I listen to and through human encounters. There are lessons in ALL of it. It’s kind of outstanding when I step back and allow myself the space to take in-absorb-learn what is being taught. The grand plan is so out of my scope of understanding at the moment. I want to be on that next level up of vibrational clarity so I can move through my emotions quicker to recenter my soul to harmony and peace. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
In the mean time of all this jabber vomit, and waiting for Mike to come out of surgery, I want to declare to the universe. My heart is open to all the opportunities for growth. Small, large, easy and painful. Teach me to rise up me raise my vibrations to create nothing but a love center state so my cup can spill over to anyone I meet.
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